Save me, oh Lord, for the pain of life is breaking me!
The bitterness of my soul has made me forget the sweetness of your living water. My heart dreads to take its next beat, death seems as good as life to me, and I look for truth in the lie that pain could be masked in pleasure.
Instead of keeping its promise of satisfaction, sin delivered only want. In the wilderness I fed my craving, yet the more I feasted on darkness the more I craved, and my lord Jesus, Your value waned. Lord, have mercy on me. I strayed so far from you. I told myself that a tiny titillation of sin would satisfy. That in a few days break from the spiritual battle, my soul would find rest. But the dangers I didn’t want to see were lurking right in front of me, and the tentacles of sin grabbed hold of me.
Oh Lord, in your mercy, grant me absolution from this broken communion with You, the Life-giver. That my deadness may once again give way to abundant life. Restore to me the faith to believe that You would be life’s greatest satisfaction. To trust, obey and receive your Spirit, once again.